(2) Crazy Talk 2008

Well, our story of adoption really began developing about 4 years ago.  Up until this point, I had never thought of the idea of Jeremy and I adopting.  Jeremy had mentioned earlier on in our marriage that he thought it would be neat to adopt, but the conversation stopped there.  4 long years ago (it seems) God placed international adoption on my heart.  I was very confused by this because we were able to give birth to our first born son so easily.  I asked God many questions during this time and
honestly, I just tried to push it away because I thought Jeremy was going to think I was absolutely crazy.  I didn't want to mention it to him because it seemed so out of line with where we were at in our lives.  After months of God tugging on my heart, I finally said something to Jeremy one evening.  The conversation was nothing like I had envisioned and worried about.  He was extremely receptive to the idea.  Now, we did not jump on the bandwagon that night and decide to adopt...it just opened the door to many conversations we would have about adoption the next 3 years.  Over time, we asked each other and God questions like "Why not domestic adoption?", "Are you sure?", "Why not just have another biological child of our own?", "Do we want another child?"  We literally processed these questions multiple times.  After about 2 years of talking and praying about it, we were still not 100% sure that it was right timing and decided to just halt the conversation completely.